half way..

The other day I realized all I do when I'm not working is go to the mountains and talk to a black cat..

This assignment I've described recently as "quiet". Friends and family are far away, I rarely work with familiar people, and the area is totally new. Quiet is also sononoums with lonely at times, but for the most part it's been a peaceful quiet.

Yet here I am again, worrying over where I'll go when this assignment is complete.  Half way through and the same thoughts keep running in my mind; stay, go, settle, travel..?

Well... I know what I want to do.. I want to stay.

 But will I be able to do it? Can I get a job, an apartment? Will I thrive being away from my family, or will it prove to be too hard? Should I become staff, or is that too confining?

I know, I know. Calm down. A month and a half is actually quite a long time away. And here's the other thing, I have faith that there's a purpose and a plan for my life. Stressing will not add more time to my day or help me figure it out sooner. All I can do is make the most of each day, apply for jobs, and just enjoy where I am right now. Tomorrow will worry about itself.

So I'll treat these next few weeks both as if my time is running out, by hiking, seeking adventure, and enjoying the unique aspects of Colorado, but also as if I'm staying, by being involved in the community, doing my job well, and getting connected.

We'll see which opportunity prevails..